I scar myself, because I hate myself

A cheerful spirit gives strength even during times of illness. But you can’t keep going if you have a broken spirit. – Proverbs 18:14 

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No tangible love from parents?
Exploited and shamefully abused?
Only lies and deception around you? (Deception – something that deliberately disguises the truth and misleads)
A life that is not worth living!
Are you one of these people? – Then this message is for you.

If not, don’t be fooled by others, many a beautiful facade hides similar feelings and cries for help.

Nobody in my circle of family and friends knew at the time, when I was young, that I was toying with suicidal thoughts. Or would you have guessed that behind that smile? I fake a smiled because I didn’t want to admit how unhappy I was, everyone was just pretending to be happy, convinced that the God of materialism would make them happy. The words you read below came from my own heart from that time – are they yours also?

I can’t stand to look at myself. Is there anyone more stupid and ugly than me?

I’m impossible. I never do anything right. Everyone else is cool and great, popular and loved, but not me.

“Can’t you be like everyone else?” I’m told.

Nowhere warmth, a little attention and affection …

I hate life. It just hurts. You get pushed around, exploited, tortured…

Why and for how much longer? But …

S   T   O   P !

Before you pick up a razor blade and scar yourself,
hurt yourself with a cigarette,
beat yourself with your fists,
keep stomping on yourself – just hold still –
just hold still and get quiet and listen carefully!
You are not a product of chance only good for the garbage and dung heap.
You have been planned and your life has been set apart for a specific purpose.
– No one has ever let you know or let you feel that way? No, perhaps not a human being, but your true creator, the creator of your soul, tells you this. He held you close to Himself in His hands when He created you and He is telling you today and now:

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„BEAUTIFUL“
Verse 1
Do you ever wonder why
You just don’t fit in sometimes
Like you’re left out every time.
Verse 2
You don’t see yourself as beautiful,
But before you cry,
Just stop & listen for a while.

Chorus 1
You’re so beautiful to Me
And I want you to see
That you’re just the way I made you to be.
You’re so beautiful to Me
And nothing can change
Or take the place of what you mean to Me.
Verse 3
Somewhere inside this great mystery that you see
There’s a reason, oh yeah,
An answer to everything.

Verse 4
I made you different
Unique and so beautiful,
Like a diamond, so precious, more than anything, you are –

You’re so beautiful to Me …

Bridge
I know sometimes it’s hard to accept the way that you are,
But you can glow with a beauty from within and be My shining star.
Lift up your head & look in My face.

Just let Me be your all,
And that’s all that matters.
I want you to know
You’re so beautiful.
Yeah, o-o-oh. —
Ja, o-o-oh. —
Chorus 3
[Beautiful] You’re so beautiful to Me [Beautiful.]
And I want you to see
That you’re just the way I made you to be.
[Beautiful] You’re so beautiful to Me [Beautiful.]
And nothing can change
Or take the place of what you mean to Me.

Simply accept this love that is offered to you by Jesus. Jesus totally understands you. He also lived here on earth and went through pretty much everything you are experiencing. People pushed him out of the city, wanted to throw him down a cliff. They called him a winebibber and a whoremonger, a friend of swindlers and that he was demon possessed. And in the end he stood on his own, all his “friends” ran away. He was beaten with a leather strap whip, with nails at the end that made his back look like minced meat.

He was laughed at, spat in the face and mocked as king, crowned with a crown of thorns.

And though so maltreated and weakened, he was driven to carry his own cross – but he did, even if he needed the help of someone standing by, all the way up to the hill they called the place of the skull, bare, lonely, deserted.
There they laid him on a cross, drove nails through his flesh and then raised the cross to the scorn and derision of all.
And yet there on his cross he said: „Father forgive them, they know not what they do.“
But as he neared his end, he cried out, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?“

He died the same death as people do without God, lost in the darkness of space, a pitch-black night, alone and lost in the cruel silence. On his shoulders the sin of the whole world. Sin that separates us from the light, from love, warmth, security and contentment.

– Sin separates man from God, who is love and all that is good.
But Jesus took all this upon himself out of love for us so that we would not have to go through such a terrible death. He atoned for the punishment that we actually deserved to pay. He did it so that we can be free, united with God in his kingdom of love.
Simply accept this wonderful gift from Jesus and tell Him that you want it.
Just say:

I thank you, Jesus, for this wonderful love for me. I would like to get to know you and your love and I wish that it may heal me in body, mind and spirit, that it may make me a new person. Please come into my heart and life so that you can always be with me. Help me to learn to speak to you and to share my joys and sorrows with you. Fill me with the power of your love. Thank you for hearing my prayer. Amen! (Means, so be it!)

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I understand!

A message from Jesus with Love for you!

I understand the trials that people’s hearts go through – the despair, the discouragement, the frustration.

I understand the pain of losing loved ones, because first I had to leave my father to come to earth, and then I had to leave those I loved so dearly on earth to return to my father.

I know what it feels like to be betrayed, because someone I had as a friend betrayed me with a kiss.

I understand the fear of what lies ahead, which is why I prayed, “Father, let this cup pass from me!”

I know what it feels like to be ridiculed and abused, because I was ridiculed and mocked and abused.

I know pain, because I felt agonizing pain when the nails pierced my hands and feet.

I understand what it feels like to be abandoned, because I felt abandoned by those I loved and who loved me back. For a moment, I even believed that my father had abandoned me.

Though my father did not let the cup pass me by, though one I loved betrayed me, though loved ones left me in times of trouble, though I was beaten and spit upon, though nails pierced my hands and feet, though I thought my father had abandoned me, though I had to die a painful death, though it looked like a great defeat, it all brought forth a great victory and salvation – a great resurrection that changed the course of history and all of eternity!

I died to save you, but I went through all the other things to understand you better.

God is our place of safety. He gives us strength. He is always there to help us in times of trouble. The earth may fall apart. The mountains may fall into the middle of the sea. But we will not be afraid. The waters of the sea may roar and foam. The mountains may shake when the waters rise. But we will not be afraid. – Psalm 46,1-3 NIRV

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